No, I'm OK guys, I just have Seasonal Affective Disorder. It creeps up on me around the same time each year as we get deeper and deeper into winter. I used to think I just really really hated winter until I realised it's an actual disorder.
Seasonal Affective Disorder is a type of depression that develops at the same time each year. Symptoms usually start out mild and get worse as the season progresses. When the season changes, people normally become completely well again.
Every year it's the same. I start feeling a little flat, then I start to withdraw, I lose energy and interest in activities I usually enjoy. I hate the feeling of hopelessness that comes with it. It's stupid. Because it's not how I am at any other time of the year!
But when I'm in the depths of it, it takes all of my energy to shake it most days. And so I found myself lying in bed at 4am this morning giving myself a pep talk and formulating this essay. Because essays have now become my way to gain clarity in my thinking. They are the way I formulate plans.
This was the list I wrote in my head as I lay there to get out of this funk
- Clean up, & beautify my space
- Go outside for a walk every day
- Morning coffee power up with MCT Oil & Lion's Maine Extract
- Level Up My Water Intake
- Get some big doses of real food from the earth
- Swimming is out (lockdown), but ground barefoot each day in the earth
- Surround myself with lots of inspiration and beauty every day
I'm lucky Australian Winters don't last very long. I'll be back to my normal programming in no time.
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